So what is it?

Either all the fashion companies decided to make their dress sizes bigger than they really are or I lost one dress size on my most recent trip to a very expensive city. Coz I went to Macy's with my mother today and just for the fun of it, I picked some outfits that I really liked but can't actually afford and tried them on. They didn't have 'em in my size (or the size that I thought I was) so I grabbed a few outfits that were one size smaller and a couple that were one size bigger. And voila, nothing feels better than being able to slip into a size smaller than what I thought I was. Hahaha. What a great way to start the New Year.

I lost one dress size just by going to a very expensive city and walking it and not being able to afford their darn food. Maybe spending 36 hours waiting for flights and getting stuck due to a snowstorm also has something to do with it. Ha, who knows.

All I care about not is that I lost one dress size without really trying. So now I'm all pumped up to go to the gym and go on that detox diet that my friend Ann has been talking about.

We'll see. Coz you know what, I am ready for a healthy body - and a body that can climb up to the top of Mt. Whitney. Hahaha. That sounded like a poem, didn't it?

Dear Blog...

I haven't talk to you for a while.... I haven't poured out my deepest thoughts and I haven't confided in you for sometime. When was the last I told you the most profound questions in my head? I honestly don't remember the last time I asked you a silly question...

But guess what, I may have to start doing that more often now. You know, you've been there with me since forever. You were in the form of a diary, a journal and now a blog. You know my history. You felt the pain. You saw all the tears. You were there in my mind, swimming through a morass of hopes, dreams, ambitions, bitterness, shame, guilt and self-blame. Yeah, you do know me well...

Remember those entries I erased? Only the two of us know, huh? We even have unpublished secrets... At least I know you are my secret keeper. My friend. My defender.

Your blank pages are comforting. They invite me to pour my heart out and experience catharsis again and again and again.

I know you are always there waiting. Thank you "Blog." Thank you for being there.... even at 3 am, when it's cold outside and the only sound I hear is the ticking of the clock...

It's almost 4 am... thanks for being here. For being a receptacle of my thoughts, my secrets, my longings, my angst. Thank you...

Thank you for being there at 3 am on a winter Sunday morning...

Maybe I Don't Know How To Love...

If you do, then maybe you could teach me how. What is love anyway?

Soooooo Done

I am so effin done for this semester!!!! I turned in my last paper today! Woooohooo. Well, I have one more group presentation on Monday then I'll be officially done with this semester but I finished my hardest paper ever and I am sooooo relieved! Finally I can go home and relax in the evening time. Finally, I'm gonna have the time to read books for pleasure! And finally, maybe I can explore Facebook more so I can see what's the hype all about. And so I know what it means when somebody sends me a growing gift hehehe

I'm just so relieved. I have only one more class to go and a thesis to write and I am done with school!!!!!!!! Isn't that the coolest thing ever????

I am ready to party!!!!! Hehehe

Looking Back

I was just reading what I came up last night after doing a few minutes of free writing. Wow. It's so amazing to see what flows from your thoughts to paper - well in this case - a computer when you just let your mind go and write whatever comes to mind and not worry about grammars and punctuation marks etc.

We did this exercise once when I took a class in Art Therapy and it was so cool how liberating it can be to write a narrative of your thoughts and just let it go.... You should try it sometime too...

Anyway, reading my previous entry again on Free Writing, I find the ending part funny. Throwing the heart out the window... Hahaha where did that come from? It actually sounds kinda gross now. LOL

I think I should do this more often - just free write and see what comes out...

Have a great Sunday everybody!